insomnia anyone?

So, here I sit. It's a little after midnight, and the one night I really need to get to sleep. I can't. You see, I have a meeting tomorrow morning. At 6:45 AM! Yes, its true. I did not mis-type that. It is for student teaching next spring. Don't ask. Our education department confuses me. But anyways, here I sit, because I am tired of laying in bed thinking. I've tried praying. Not thinking. That one's impossible. But, nothing seems to work. Lots of stuff has been going on this week. It's the last week of the year. No kidding. I feel like I just moved in back in August. I can hardly believe my junior year of college is coming to an end. I've learned a lot of lessons this year about friendship, grace, and trust. God can pack a lot into a few months if you let him. But there is something that I continually see from him, he really IS in control. Everything DOES actually work out. Not always the way you want it, but it does, perfectly, just in his way and timing. I am definately learning to be less confined by what I think should happen or when I think things should happen. Just allowing myself to be who I am, where I am and let God take it from there. Not always easy. But the best. He has also taught me how wonderful prayer is. Just being able to talk to him whenever. I think as Christians we take that so lightly, but honestly, what other person, can you talk to, immediately, when you want, where you want, with no roaming fees or overage charges? No one. But God. And he listens. And when you ask, he puts his arms around you and just lets you cry. Or he laughs with you at the fact that you just tripped over nothing on your way to class, when no one else is there to laugh with. He has become my best friend. And I love that. This entry may be a little scatter brained, considering I am typing in the dark and starting to feel the effects of that Tylenol PM I took a bit ago. Hopefully, I can crawl back into bed for a few hours before I have to wake up @ 5:30. Eww.