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And just like that break is over. Back to the WU to start classes. I will admit that this is the last place I want to be. Don't get me wrong. Classes are fine. Most likely the least of my worries. There is one thing that I am discovering as I am here. Christians are so afraid to be real. Real with each other. Real with themselves. Real with God. We are so concerned with making sure that those around us think everything is ok, we loose touch with ourselves. For those that are not ok and want so desperately to reach out, can't. With the fear of being discovered that maybe not everything in there life is ok and having the judgment of the 'perfect' Christians rain down on them. There are those that just want to scream and yell and tell people how hurt they are because of comments, looks, and things done to them but again, they can not. Why? Because being angry is not something Christians do. Well, I say why the heck not! We hide things inside and let them ferment until we just want to burst. But no, we wouldn't want to make things messy. Unfortunately, sometimes the only way to clean things up is to get messy in the process. I want to get messy. I want to burst. Most of all, I want to get clean. I want to be a Christian that cultivates an atmosphere that says, 'it's ok, not to be ok.' Following Christ doesn't mean we are always ok. It means figuring out what isn't ok in our lives and allowing Jesus to come in and clean up the mess. I just wish that was an ok thing to desire in a school full of Christians.