failure=good?

Hmmmm...we got a lot to think about this morning at church. I have started going to a new church called Exit 59. I love it. It is a smaller church and it is so much more personal than the big churches around here where you are basically a number. The worship reminded me a lot of camp when Stefan and Shane would play. I love that simplistic style. I think a lot of times people get wrapped up in the sound of the guitar and bass and drums or how the sound system is working instead of listening to the Holy Spirit. The pastor spoke about when Paul and Barnabus had an arguement and split up over John Mark. (It's in Acts 15 if you are unclear about the story.) Mark had failed Paul once and Paul didn't want to have him along on the next mission. Barnabus saw the potential. There was a lot more to it than that but one of his main points was the fact that if we aren't failing we aren't trying hard enough. To be honest, I feel like a failure most of the time. Perhaps that is my perfectionist in me talking...But so often it seems as though I can never get the simplest of things right. Especially with my relationship with Christ. However failure can be good. It teaches us our own weaknesses and the strength of God. If we are constantly succeding we tend to think that it is our own will power making things happen instead of the suffience of God in our lives. Failure is a huge fear of mine. I mean I hate getting below 85% let alone failing. Maybe that is the reason that I am in Anatomy and Physiology. I can't do that class on my own. The only way I will do well is by leaning on God. And even if I don't do as well as I want...it's ok. Failure makes us humble...we all need a little more humlity in our lives. I'm not sure if this is comming off as profoundly as I wanted it too. But it made an impact on me so I thought I would share. Oh, and if you could all keep a girl named Haley in your prayers I would really appreciate it. She is a little girl I am working with at McCulloch Middle School and I can sense she is going through a really hard time right now.