I want...

Ever wondered why things happen the way they do? I do...a LOT. I just...things are just strange lately. I miss home more than ever. I wish I could just lay on the couch at home and look out my window. To smell my mom's cooking or hear my dad fixing something out in the shed. Or to go to church and just sit. Listen to Pastor Rob sing, or the guys play their ridiculous games. Kenny I miss your laugh and Jeffrey, your silly laugh. Or even Kendra's confused look when I use a big word. I miss my hugs from Nancy and Rosie. I miss coffee time before Sunday School. Kathy always has the best coffee time with bagels and fruit. I want to watch the colors change on Laurel Hill. I want to go to a football game. I need another Spanish 4 class. To have another eye opening English class with Mrs. Hickey...or my fun gym classes with Emily. Or yelling down the hall to Hales or Brownie. Oh how I wish I could play Floor Hockey once more with the guys and Mr. Krall. To disect the pig with Nagar, Joe, and Ash. Have another wafer steak with at the Lunch Table. Listen to Mr. Polinksi and Mr. Twiggs morning announcement. Or a basketball game to watch Andy get his 1000th point again. Or go on the Senior Banqet or paint the field, one more trip to the Rennisance Fair. I want to go to Chamber and just sit in front of the Dinning Hall and look all over. I want to play in the creek and catch creyfish again. Or play basketball with Shane, Stefan and Doug. Play four hours of Gemsh with Holly, Amber and Corey. The smell of the cows rolling down onto the campground is even something I want to smell again. To sit at the Grants cabin till one a.m. listing to Pastor Doug and making fun of his "seagull" likeness. To yell SCANDOLOUS with Jess and Jill again. Even a meal of Beula's food again would be wonderful. I want to just sit on my bed and look at my books and pictures, and listen to music. Pet Pumpkin and watch This Old House with my dad. Have tuna noodle cassarole for dinner. Stay up late and listen to the crickets and the frogs make a racket outside. I want life to be simple again. No more unknown. Like what's for lunch in the Baldwin, or what will I do in Education class today? Or even better...what halarious words are going to come out of Rob Tompson's mouth in World Changers? I would just like to go back to the Seinfeld episode in Trump's room, and listen to Pastor Rob preach, and swing on the swing set for hours just talking with friends. I really miss it. I miss having a safe enviorment to curl into. Instead of this confusing and difficult college life. It's not as wonderful as it seems. But then it is as wonderful as it seems. See what I mean?