Jeremiah 29:11-13

Trust...it is probably one of the most difficult things to do in life. Should I trust you with a seceret? Can I trust my parents not to yell when I talk to my parents? Can I trust myself that I am hearing God's voice and not my own? If I give you my heart, can I trust you not to break it? See, there is this new idea in my head. It's a scary idea. It's a exciting idea. It's a confusing idea. Should I? Shouldn't I? Is it right for me and is it what God wants? The praying and digging into God's word that has been done to day is amazing. I should do it more. I'm clinging to one of the passages I found in Romans 12: 6-8 "We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift...is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage...let him do it cheerfully." I think I need this. Things are changing so fast for me lately. My feelings are never the same for more than a day anymore. The confusion, anger, sadness, happiness that flow through are taking their toll. What I need is the peace that only God can supply. I want to be passionate for him. I want to show him how much I love him through what I do. I don't want to dread the next day, I want to go to bed egerly waiting for my alarm to go off. I desire that excitment that God provides when he gives you something you so desperatly cling to. I want to feel excited all summer like I am excited about IWU. I want to be on fire for God, I want to burn for him. Not a mere candle in the corner, a blazing bon fire in the center of a field. I don't just want to get up in the morning, I want to GET UP!!!! I want to wake up with a smile on my face instead of feeling like I should stay in bed. This is probably confusing for most...but it will make sense soon enough. I'm not even sure what I feel other than this is right for me and this is what God wants. Pray that it is, pray that I am listening to him, pray for my parents that they might feel the urgencey I have for it. "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your hear.'"